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A tormented Nicole Brown poured her heart out to O.J. Simpson in a series of secret love letters that STAR is revealing for the first time. In the haunting collection, written in the years between the couple’s 1992 divorce and her murder last year, Nicole tells the man who abused and beat her that “I know nobody will ever love me the way that you do.”
But Simpson never saw the letters – because the anguished beauty never showed them to anyone.
“Nicole wrote them as a form of therapy for herself,” a source tells STAR. “She was trying to work through her feelings – good and bad – for O.J. and she just needed to put some things down on paper.”
In another revealing love letter that O.J. never read, Nicole even apologized to him, saying: “I’m sorry for the pain I’ve caused you…
“Please let us be a family again, and let me love you – better than I ever have before,” she begs. “I’ll love you forever and always.”
“I want to put our family back together! I want our kids to grow up with their parents. I thought I’d be happy raising Sydney and Justin by myself – since we didn’t see too much of you anyway…”
At one point, the sad beauty even tried to lure O.J. back by appearing at his house clad in a sundress. “I want to come home,” she told him.
But Simpson used more than one weapon to control Nicole – besides his fists, he had his considerable wealth.
After their divorce, it was Nicole and the children who were forced to move out of the family home at Rockingham – not Simpson.
According to their divorce papers, Nicole even admitted she had no income other than what he gave her. And even after they officially broke up, Simpson continued to hold sway over her financially. In fact, Nicole lost out on $500 a month rent after O.J. told Kato Kaelin that he didn’t want him living at her guesthouse on Gretna Green any longer.
“His actions succeeded in simultaneously removing a potential rival for Nicole’s affections and taking money out of her pockets,” says a source.
And just one month before she was brutally murdered, Simpson threatened to tell the IRS that she had lied when she told them she was renting out the condo on Bundy, thereby saving herself thousands of dollars in taxes on the sale of her rental property in San Francisco…
But no matter how hard she tried, Nicole just couldn’t break free.
“O.J. was addicted to Nicole and wanted to control her in every way,” says Beverly Hills relationship counselor Linda Tatum. “There’s something seductive for a woman to have that effect on a man.
“Yet in the end, she had no power at all.”
Star Magazine (November 7 1995)